Escape

Escape from the loudness
Escape from the yelling
Escape from the doors slamming, glasses breaking
There is no way out of this madness
Silently I flee to my room
It is my safe haven
The only place I can be alone, in peace, tranquility, solidarity
Smothered under the covers of my cold blanket, I begin to read in my head
I begin to get transported to another world, similar to mine
I am Her
I am Him
I am Them
My ultimate escape from this haunting reality is my book
There I feel the losses, the hurt, the pain, and the love they feel
My mind takes a sober trip away from this horror, if only for a little while
Brings me to never ending bliss
Screaming, crying, yelling
Immediately torn from my fantasy life back into reality
I close my eyes and lay still in the drowning darkness
It overcomes me until I can no longer fight the sleep that pricks my eyes, as hard as cactus spines
Sleeping at last, it is only mere hours until I wake up to this hell I call home.

MaryJane

She consumes me
Brings me higher, higher, until my head screams for mercy
The slow inhale of intoxicating smoke caresses my lungs
Makes me want more, beg for more
Hold it in, hold it in, just a little longer, just to climb a bit higher
Can't stop now
Can't turn back
She burns my throat, I'm coughing now
Buzzing now like a thousand wasps trapped in my head, wanting to escape
There's no escape
"You did this to yourself, don't blame me" she spits
Falling now, falling fast, falling hard
Crashing
Burning out
MaryJane, MaryJane come back to me!
Lift me above the clouds, the greatest heights imaginable
For now, I'm drowning in the darkest depths possible
Save me, save me
I drift into a dreary sleep
Until she graces me with her presence
Once more